Reconcilable Differences

by A. Sea Herndon

Reconcilable Differences

There are no “fuck you’s” in any of my prayers

if there are “goddamns” they squarely point at me

I know not what monster you’ve imagined

I know not what monster I have been

Like Jacob’s Ladder I climb stairs

but all they all slip out from under me

a monster monstrously in-saddened

two it takes to reconcile sin

I failed

I failed

I failed

I failed

I failed

I failed myself, my God, and you

Suicide is easy as a nightmare

Forgiveness hard as nails pound to a tree

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